Mother's Day again...

And you know, I've been without my mother for almost 20 years, and it is a wonder to me that some years are harder than others. This year is one of the harder ones I'm thinking. I also lost my grandmother a little while back. Loss is hard I tell you. There's not much I can do but pray and keep it moving! Anyway, I think it's hard because I definitely have my times where I just wish I could talk to MY mother, and then they have this big day where all these people just shower their mothers with love. I wish I could! But this year I'm going to allow myself to grieve for the loss, and not suppress. I'm just going to deal with it! It can't be that bad to just allow myself to feel, so I'm going to do it. The truth is, I wish I had had at least a chance to have a mother...