It's rough sometimes!!!

This isn't a sad post, more like an expression of feelings. I'm having the most ridiculous issues with my femininity and feeling sexy and girlie and all of that!!! My locs are providing a challenge for me, and today I was thinking...screw it, cut them off! Ay yi yi! I don't want to relax my hair again ever because it was so unhealthy, but I promise this natural hair thing is a struggle some days. PLUS, I'm single, which is cool, but then I'm very picky when it comes to men, but it seems like I have my moments where I want what I once had...doesn't have to be the same person, although that would be nice, but just to have someone who I know I can trust, and who trusts me equally, and is my best friend. That's what I miss...I wasn't ready before, and I'm not all the way ready now, but I'm getting there. Patience...patience, and I'm just going to focus on pushing my career.